This is a song (I think) that God gave me this weekend as I wept.
3 am..
I awake to hear her tears, another bad dream
I call out, "come here love, and let me hold you,"
I wrap my arms around her
Swaying slow, I draw in and kiss her face
and wipe away the tears,
"Love,
I will never leave, you are in my heart
I loved you long before I knew you
You belong - you were meant to be
and you will never ever be alone."
3 am..
I'm awake, alone in tears
another sleepless night
I cry out, "Lord I need to feel You now,
come wrap Your arms around me.."
Swaying slow, He draws close to kiss my face
and wipe away my tears,
"Love,
I will never leave, you are in My heart
I knew your name from the beginning of time,
you belong - you were meant to be
and you will never ever be alone."
I just think it's so incredible that my name has been on the hearts of my friends here. Clearly it's been on my heart and really believe God wants to reveal more to me and I pray I open my heart to Him and let Him guide me.
Psalm 139:23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts...
10 comments:
I love it. Keep pressing into him. He is the only one that is ALWAYS there... You know I'm praying for you, and singing with you.
Love you.
I am reminded of the verse, "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."
He is so faithful, always present, always loving.
Joy
I left a comment early on Amy's blog - really a note for you.
I was very busy this past week but you were on my heart and mind....lots of prayers for you. My heart aches for you in this season BUT I know your God will carry you through. He loves you sooooo much that He's even arranged for some new friends (that you haven't even met yet in person) to hold you up.
As I've prayed for you this keeps coming to mind... When the Isrealities went into battle all was well if Moses arms were raised..But after time Moses grew weary. Aaron and Hur came along side of Moses and held his arms up for the duration of the battle and victory. We are there to hold you up for this battle! We are miles and hours away but God is there...He is there!!
Joy,
We are behind you 100% and even though we have yet to meet we are so in prayer for you for VICTORY!
Thank you Roxanne, Shari and Holly... I so value the prayers you've sent for me and the encouragement in our little bloggers forum. I have certainly been blessed with friends new and old and hope to meet in person very soon! Much love...
Thanks for being real Joy! He loves it.
He is the only one who cares enough to stay up all night with you! Don't you feel loved?!!
He keeps whispering thoughts of love towards you, and will continue.
I am praying for you daily, and know that you will come through.
What can really help is to look at all the things in your life that are good, take time to be grateful for those. Then look for someone who is even worse off and see how you could help them.. be amazed at how before you know it, you have forgotten about issues and emotions you have been struggling with.
I am grateful for so very many things... not the least of which is my children. They are the joys of my life. I don't spend my days wallowing in despair - yes, I'm struggling through an unimaginable grief, but I can see the blessings even in the midst of this. I attempt daily to focus on others and not allow my sorrow to weigh me down. God-willing I will get stronger every day and walk away from this a changed woman.
Joy, I once attended a workshop for seperated and divorced women. I vividly recall the Christian speaker, who had faced this same experience, say that on average 85% of one's energy is consummed by survival when faced with this kind of trauma. The grieving process can be messy and unpredictable. At times it can be difficult for those around you to understand your losses. Do know that we care deeply for you and are there to support you during this grieving process. You are loved.
Thanks Roxanne... I have to say, it's frustrating when people don't understand that this is SUCH a difficult thing to go through. It's grieving a loss - not a death, but still loss and on some level it is harder to grieve for someone who is still around. I know I'm loved and supported by you all and it's so appreciated. I guess I sometimes feel the need to validate my feelings to someone who might not be able to understand my position. I should stop worrying what other people think.
Thank you for your affirming words... I know you know where I'm at and it's comforting knowing that I'm not alone. Love you much....
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